This morning we woke up to our son Jacob screaming. He was screaming because our son Trenton was having a seizure. At the moment none of us knew what was going on, we just saw that Trenton's eyes were rolling in the back of his head and he was making a weird breathing sound. As soon as I saw him I picked him up in my arms and started screaming for my Mom and John. Within seconds Trenton was laying lifeless in my arms (a feeling I know I will never forget). I immediately started to administer CPR while John called 9-1-1. It seemed like this lasted forever. When the ambulance arrive Trenton stoped seizing but was still unresponsive. During the ambulance ride he came to for a few min. but he didn't know who I was (which really freaked me out). The nurse reassured us that this was normal for a child who had a seizure and that he would soon start connecting the dots. The Dr.'s started testing Trenton right away. A few hours later they were able to confirm that Trenton did have a seizure. They also told us that his brain scan was normal (which is good in the sense that he doesn't have a brain tumor or epilepsy). But it also means that we will probably never know what caused his seizure. The nurse told us that he may never have another seizure (3 out of 4 children never have another one) and if he did have another one, it would probably be within a year or so. Please pray that I can trust the Lord with this. It's hard not to hoover over Trenton. Today he was walking out of the kitchen and he looks at me and said "I'm just going to the bathroom" I cracked up. He was back to his normal wise guy self.
They will now have to run some more tests but it sounds to me like they don't usually find any answers. Being a Mom that just doesn't sit right. I want answers! I want to know why My baby's brain didn't work right today. Why this happened. This has been such an emotional day. I pray that I can sleep, resting in the fact that Trenton is Gods child and that I am so blessed that the Lord had given him to us for this long. I pray that I have many more years with my son, but I also pray that I will always remember who knitted this little guy in my womb. He loves Trenton far more than I could ever imagine, so why do I worry about the whys? and Whats? Please be praying for Trenton and for the rest of our family who went threw this ordeal. We are all still quite shaken up over this (all but Trenton)
P.S - Trenton learned the song that says "Oh No Never Let go, threw the calm and threw the storm!" at VBS this year. it is his fav. song. My Sister Sara was telling John at the hospital about Trenton singing that song the night before. When we were in the car on the way home from the hospital John told me about his conversation with my Sister and as we were talking I could here Trenton mumbling the song in the back seat. When John heard him he said "Hey Buddy, you want to listen to the radio?" When he turned the radio on it was that song. Trenton started singing that song as loud as he could. Of coarse John and i just began to weep. I called my Sister Sara and told her to turn her radio on :) God is so good to remind us of His faithfulness.